Two more days and october ends. Until now I stop and start looking back. This year has been passing so fast. I remember january, when I was applying to study again. I thought this year I was going to start a PhD. Instead, I have been studying a certificate degree in sustainable tourism. I started in april and now is october....it really has been so fast!
A lot of things have been happening; some good ones other bad ones, but I still think in my dreams and goals and how I am going to get there. There´s a saying "if you want to tell a joke, tell God about your plans". How true is that. One thinks about the future and starts making plans, but suddenly things change. It has been a year and three months since my surgery. This year I felt sick three times and I hope next year to be completely healed.
People come and people go. There is not enough time to spend it with friends but I have more time for myself. I needed this. Is this the schock of the 30´s?
For three weeks I have been dreaming strange things. Does this mean a change? Now I think about my future as a single. I can´t depend on my parents all my life. I think about a better job where I can earn more money and have something, a house, a car...nobody is going to support me unless I find a husband...but that´s not my priority. I am a woman and by nature sometimes I feel I want to have kids. I love kids! But I see how is everything outside in the world and I thank God because I´m not a mother yet. Why am I taking things so seriously now? Maybe is the age.
I am so happy because my kids got back, I really missed them so much. And today again, I met the nun...the beautiful old nun. We sat outside a sushi restaurant and started to talk. She told me again that nobody believed her that God talks with her, I do. Of course I do. You can feel when God speaks with someone. I don´t know what it is but you just feel it and it transforms you. I am so different than two years ago, than last year and I am so happy to be what I am. I have a lot of peace and I needed that in my life. I want to start working on my art project again, to travel, to study, to learn as much as I can, to help....I want to do many things. I am glad all the bad things are gone, am glad I left all that.
I was telling today to my friend Khadim that people change some time in their lives. I don´t know if it´s every ten or eight years. Since last year I have been changing. How do you call that? Most important is to feel good, to be healthy in all aspects and I have achieved a mental, spiritual, emotional and a physical peace and balance. I sometimes think about the past and ask questions, but that is just the PAST. It passed. Nothing will change the things that happened. But that doesn´t going to stop me from growing neither.
I see all the images of my life: friendships, love, travels, games, hardwork, fears, wishes. I really don´t have any reason to be frustrated or sad. I have more than many people. I have reached places that not many people reach. And I have seen a lot that many people don´t dare to see.
I have been rejected and hurt a lot of times. That broke my heart. Now, it´s very hard that someone or something break me. Yes, maybe is the age. But everything I have been living, everything I had received and given, I wouldn´t change it.
Thanks Coach, Khadim, Rumy, Tosin, kids, the beautiful nun and lif
A lot of things have been happening; some good ones other bad ones, but I still think in my dreams and goals and how I am going to get there. There´s a saying "if you want to tell a joke, tell God about your plans". How true is that. One thinks about the future and starts making plans, but suddenly things change. It has been a year and three months since my surgery. This year I felt sick three times and I hope next year to be completely healed.
People come and people go. There is not enough time to spend it with friends but I have more time for myself. I needed this. Is this the schock of the 30´s?
For three weeks I have been dreaming strange things. Does this mean a change? Now I think about my future as a single. I can´t depend on my parents all my life. I think about a better job where I can earn more money and have something, a house, a car...nobody is going to support me unless I find a husband...but that´s not my priority. I am a woman and by nature sometimes I feel I want to have kids. I love kids! But I see how is everything outside in the world and I thank God because I´m not a mother yet. Why am I taking things so seriously now? Maybe is the age.
I am so happy because my kids got back, I really missed them so much. And today again, I met the nun...the beautiful old nun. We sat outside a sushi restaurant and started to talk. She told me again that nobody believed her that God talks with her, I do. Of course I do. You can feel when God speaks with someone. I don´t know what it is but you just feel it and it transforms you. I am so different than two years ago, than last year and I am so happy to be what I am. I have a lot of peace and I needed that in my life. I want to start working on my art project again, to travel, to study, to learn as much as I can, to help....I want to do many things. I am glad all the bad things are gone, am glad I left all that.
I was telling today to my friend Khadim that people change some time in their lives. I don´t know if it´s every ten or eight years. Since last year I have been changing. How do you call that? Most important is to feel good, to be healthy in all aspects and I have achieved a mental, spiritual, emotional and a physical peace and balance. I sometimes think about the past and ask questions, but that is just the PAST. It passed. Nothing will change the things that happened. But that doesn´t going to stop me from growing neither.
I see all the images of my life: friendships, love, travels, games, hardwork, fears, wishes. I really don´t have any reason to be frustrated or sad. I have more than many people. I have reached places that not many people reach. And I have seen a lot that many people don´t dare to see.
I have been rejected and hurt a lot of times. That broke my heart. Now, it´s very hard that someone or something break me. Yes, maybe is the age. But everything I have been living, everything I had received and given, I wouldn´t change it.
Thanks Coach, Khadim, Rumy, Tosin, kids, the beautiful nun and lif
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